THE VINDICATED

Wednesday, February 25, 2009 , 10:36 PM

hey guys, nothing much to write about today,just sitting down, eating marigold low fat yoghurt , yea i noe its ironic and its natural btw, dont like anything else but natural. behind me the TV's showing some britney spears stuff. feeling sorta emo all of a sudden.

well nothing much today but the usual, mr yap being the dark lord of the sith and all. and i changed seats and im sitting infront. yea, now i gotta do all my homework and stuff, but i guess it gives me some motivation to study even though its by force.

well some things have changed and some have not. still getting used to everything tats happening around me. mrs whelan, believe it or not, said something meaningful, well actually it was from a paper she was holding, life changes, people come and go, friends change, partners change. it changes according to ur own changes, and ive made many, regret some, dont regret others. well yea, one might say to never regret wat u do, and like directly translated from chinese, a good horse doesnt eat the grass tats behind it (yea its weird but u get the point, its a literal traslation anyways) well, if the grass behind the horse is worth eating, y not right?
well, i have to be strong somehow, learn some new things, unlearn bad habits and stuff.

and thoughts run thru my mind and everyonce in a while, open wounds would open again. like mourning over someone's death except tat someone is still alive, but reborn into an entirely different person. dark engulfs the dying light, as he falls, on frail wings of vanity and wax. and yea, im falling, falling fast and crashing and burning.

i just don't get it sometimes, i shouldnt feel this way, but i do anyways. i cant let go of something tat ive held so dear for the past 10 months, though its the only way out. fuck. been listening to sugar we're going down by fall out boy, saw the video and it made sense somehow, not sure if u get wat i mean. but yea, its meaningful. well here it is, maybe it'll shed some light on how i feel, if u can think in a screwed up way, then yea.